An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet regardless of time, place or circumstance. The thread may stretch or tangle but it will never break.

 

 

Chinese proverb

If my alter ego was a white chick with a potty mouth

 

she would be……… Jenna Marbles

 

What would yours be?

What is this elusive nap thing? I remember I hated it as a kid, loved it as a young adult and now I seem to have lost it now & can’t find it anywhere…?  I don’t sleep well lately:/ I’ve been pondering on things, with the job offer at the hair saloon. I’ve actually turned down their offer after giving it much thought.

I still got a fair bit of savings left and also i did save quite a fair bit in HK and  been kind of sneaky and applied for jobs in Japan, HK and Taiwan close-by. Martin lives in Japan and works for Rakuten. I should prob inquire more and Japan does sounds like such a lovely country to work in and i know some of my course  mates from there..

I don’t think, i’d ever go back into hotels tho.. St Regis was the last hotel i worked in but i don’t think, i’d ever wanna go back to the hotel industry again.. I also miss Perth, maybe not as much as before but there are still regrets. That damn visa thing will prob be my biggest regret and giving up on hospitality prob another, i could have gone far, even my boss in Perth had said that, i don’t take opportunities when they come.. I know, Anton meant well, and i still think he’s such an amazing boss.

Come to think of it,  I should have just applied for the visa under the de facto scheme with Ron since we were already living together, i was just elusive and also somehow, i figured, if we broke up, there might be implications and i didn’t want to depend on him and with him being from Pakistan , that might also take a longer process.. I would still be living in Perth had i just applied it under that visa and i prob might be living in Straya for good now.

I miss everyone  in Perth and the memories of everyone in it. I’m missing those times, and i’m also grateful and thankful for everything else that i have going on now… I miss Sanga. My South African bro from uni. So thankful and glad, he lived close during all that stress with the landlord who had a rat in his house, I could  comfortably hang out at his place, with unkempt hair bed hair sometimes without makeup talking bout work, lecturers. he was also the one who taught me to drive when i bought my first car, A green Honda and he’ such a joker and excellent in impersonating people. I really miss him a lot!!! Apparently he’s now the front office manager at the Rydges, he’s come such a long way from cookery to management.. .

I also miss my Korean  course mates, wow that’s so random. I miss Cheryl heaps and she’s now doing a 10 days trip around Europe with her brother and would  be meeting her family in Israel later during the week for another tour and then she’d be in Singapore for Angie’s wedding.. and then off to the US of A for some more travelling and thn back to Perth or Taiwan. I am sooo envious!

Fucks sake, i’m already 30! I don’t mind never ever being married because i know, i can’t be like Sim, living the ideal ‘tai tai’ life, cos when she thought hard if she could give up on the lifestyle she had, if she settled on her then bf, she’d not be able to live in a bigger apartment and without a masseuse on a weekly basis to come over, she broke off the relationship for good and agreed to a man that her mom had picked in India.. An older guy, who’s really awesome, happens to be an intellectual who has written some books and had majored in political science and she’s now  blissfully married, and settled in India and she travels all around the world wherever her husband goes.

I don’t think, i’d be genuinely fulfilled, if it was me or even if my husband buys me designer wear and all that glitz, i don’t think, i’d be that contented, i dunno, it does sound nice. Anyway, she’s always been the princessy type and just as well..

Just a wee bit sad, that we all not as tight as we were, we were the best of friends… I guess, that’s just how life is.

Everyone’s going places. I don’t want to live with anymore regrets.

 

(One of the first few places i lived in when i moved to the city)

I miss everyone here and that’s Sanga.  Picty taken by Tobsin, my mate from uni at my place at the backyard after a couple of shots before heeding out to the clubs and his ex gf there next to me.. We don’t keep in touch anymore, it’s a bit sad. Rach in the left is married now with twins..  She and Sanga are prob the only ones,  i’m still in touch with despite the distance

 

Off  to bed now,  in my shortest, naughtiest Jammies because NO-ONE IS AROUND TO JUDGE ME,  and well.. cos I just got sprung when i tried to sneak in to the kitchen pantsless for some cookies, Meh…

I miss living on my own and having my own place

 

Night love bugs, whoever who’s still left on Xanga. I think, i’ll continue to blog on here often.

xoxo

Don’t count your chickens until they have hatched!

And if they don’t hatch, have a champagne breakfast with your girlfriends over some scrambled eggs.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              

Then get some of those lemons life threw at you and squeeze them over the pancakes! Then buy a chicken.

Life lessons learnt by breakfast metaphors, title of my book!
Happy Days
xx

 

Exactly how all the animals in my zoo house will behave! so cute!

 

….. I feel like they are like the Romeo & Juliet of the animal kingdom, they even have the same fate.

 

Somewhat akin to being the First day back at work after an entire month away…There is no way to downplay this one. Reality can just go bite it, thanks!

So, was just hanging out with my sister during Valentine’s day and we walked past Shunji Matsuo, this popular hair saloon here  and noticed, that there’s an opening for a receptionist and since it’s close by home, i decided to walk in to inquire. I prob don’t have the  ”Singaporean” look cos he asked if I was local? “Ummmm yeah.?!?” with a puzzled look on my face,  he smiled back and handed me  the application form..

The thing, is it’s not the job i wanted at all… I’m more suited for a PA job, i make a damn good secretary and there would be opp to travel which is what i want but I got this job just like that right away and i start today, and the hours are similar to retail hrs which sucks.. I don’t mind the hours tho, 12 pm-9 pm, It’s not like, i have much of a social life anyway but i really hate working thru the weekends.. and 6 days a week!! (Mel, stop complaining)

And, also i don’t know the art to negotiate discussing salary. I’m getting less than what i was earning before.. I’m weighing everything down and i’m also tired of being useless at home.. I hate not doing anything and i’m getting bored of life..

I’ll see how it goes today, maybe the dude can do something bout my bangs, a trim maybe and see if he’s willing to increase it a little, i mean what if i wanted to go on a holiday, what if i wanted to adopt a puppy or board a kitty in the hopes of owning fluffy things (Owls are  considered fluffy things…) annnnd i have all this expenses for good food in some nice places and i’d also like to start saving at least 30% of income and be a women of leisure

 

Just some thoughts I’ve been pondering for a while..

“Don’t be with someone who thinks you are beautiful; be with someone who makes you feel good and beautiful about yourself.”

Pssssh like who’s isn’t superficial to a certain extend..?

It’s funny, i have my marketing and accounting lecturer Tanya and Ales on my fb along with some pastors and church friends  whom i have not been in touch lately.. They prob think, i’m just the weirdest craziest person around or  pastors be tripping,  too much sexiness erupting for facebook to handle… :/

I know, there are some people who have separate emails to manage their life, and i was thinking…

one email account- for wild creepy self

another email account -for being normal…

God forbids, someone finds out about the creepy you… We are all so afraid to reveal who we really are these days, it’s the creepy and the beautiful you that makes U.. YOU…!

If people can’t handle that, it’s not your problem, to change anything about you. I’m also afraid to loose myself to be what others, expects me to be like.. I’m also afraid to make decisions.. WRONG decisions!

Like if someone asked me, if i wanted a Coke or GreenTea. I’d be pondering for ages just to decide what i really want and i’m just afraid to make a wrong decision and i really dislike that about myself being indecisive.

What matters, is that I’ve made a decision right..? Good or Bad, i made a decision rather than being led to what others thinks i should do…

I think, i’ll just keep one email acc for now, and have another one for creepy Mel.

F.Y.I  I’ll have you know Crazy, creepy and spontaneous Mel is wild, real, raw and awesome…!!

When you’re your favorite persons favorite person

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It’s good to be back after a short break away from the hustle and bustle of Singapore. So during the holidays in Nov last year, I did a 2 month stint, handling projects from middle-east in a booming  oil & gas industry which had prospects of me relocating anywhere in the world, but the remuneration package and hours and everything else sucked, I regret it now though not extending the contract,  I’m still positive, there’s still an awesome career out there for me.

I have been looking, ironically, there’s like job openings in HK, Macau and Shanghai and I just got back from HK not too long ago…  I’m not sure if now would be the best time to move, I’m saving on rent staying with the family but how long could I possibly live like this…? Seems like no matter how much I save, it’s never enough, I end up spending more on food. I honestly think I could save a whole lot of money if I don’t go out and just have 5 cats!!!

I know I really shouldn’t complain much, I know there are people who work more than 12 hours everyday like Jackie for instance, my friend’s bf in HK who’s an accountant works till 4 am and returns back to work, 9 am juggling with everything else whilst being in a long distance relationship with my friend for the past 5 years.

And speaking of relationships, I had been on a couple of dates here and there, with the 2 Russians in Singapore, the older guy, i went cycling with, no chemistry, he tried going in for for a kiss at the end of the night, and i gave him my cheeks twice, the younger one, i kinda enjoyed the attention, he tried to get me to go on another date with him but really, i wasn’t keen at all after that one date, it wasn’t him, just me… I just know, he’s not my kind of guy.. :/

I met him at a party and turned him down on a couple of occasions for dinner via text knowing, he’d want something more. I really wasn’t into him and so i decided to not lead him anymore thru our  exchange of flirty texts that went on for weeks and replied to his last text inviting me for dinner saying, I’m not available, he texted back again asking if I was indefinitely unavailable or was it just for a while, I didn’t had an answer and did what i know best without hurting his feelings by avoiding his calls and texts and eventually, he stopped texting and calling and deleted me of FB.

I met this other guy online a month ago for a short bit, we held hands, had champagne by the beach, it was all very nice, but he didn’t want a relationship at the moment ( also he just split up from his wife not too long ago)… Divorced men comes with baggages unfortunately..

I don’t know why, i end up meeting one scoundrel, one after another…  I was thinking of Graeme (A) whom I wrote about of a possible relationship with him then, and tried meeting other people around just not to “put all my eggs in one basket” but It’s hard, I’m not sure how some do it, I can’t… I suck in this whole dating thing… :/

I liked G at one point, I’ll not lie but, I’ve been thinking, if he’d be the kind of guy who could handle being in a relationship with me, I find him at times whiny and whingy with lots of issues to deal with and his arrogance sure is off putting and not just that, he’s disrespectful towards people and that is seriously a deal breaker for me.  My sister has a good judgment of character and she’s not impressed by him either and when he just keeps dissing people, I honestly feel like slapping him. Somebody needs to school that fool seriously!!!

I like the idea of being in a relationship with my best friend, with someone who knows my heart and gets me and loves me, whom I can trust and be completely comfortable around with and hold a decent conversation with, without any insecurity  and someone with wits and a good heart, i could respect and adore … I’m sure, i’m just like any single lady, looking for real, ridiculous, inconvenient, all consuming, can’t live without each other kind of love.

I’m beginning to think that, that kind of love does not exist, maybe it does for some, and for the last 4 years, I’m just desperately tired looking for love in all the wrong places. I like to believe in the best in people and sometimes, that’s how it is. It’s not that the person is bad,  just means the story ended for a beginning of another story like how Breaking bad unfolded as a fantastic story like a book you couldn’t put down, it wasn’t a bad story just not what you expected the ending to be like.

I should concentrate on things like, sending out my resumes, and taking up pole classes in the evening to  keep fit and feel sexy at the same time, and earning all the money to do some travelling. Taiwan, Cambodia, Vietnam and NZ are some of the places I’d really like to go see… and meet @laytexduckie in NY for some delicious thinly crusted pizza, he has been raving about it , being the best pizza!  <3

Ahhhh bucketlist…! What are your lists on your bucket list?