February 10, 2014

• Serial dater Mel… Oops!

   

   

   

  It’s good to be back after a short break away from the hustle and bustle of Singapore. So during the holidays in Nov last year, I did a 2 month stint, handling projects from middle-east in a booming  oil & gas industry which had prospects of me relocating anywhere in the world, but the remuneration package and hours and everything else sucked, I regret it now though not extending the contract,  I’m still positive, there’s still an awesome career out there for me.

  I have been looking, ironically, there’s like job openings in HK, Macau and Shanghai and I just got back from HK not too long ago…  I’m not sure if now would be the best time to move, I’m saving on rent staying with the family but how long could I possibly live like this…? Seems like no matter how much I save, it’s never enough, I end up spending more on food. I honestly think I could save a whole lot of money if I don’t go out and just have 5 cats!!!

  I know I really shouldn’t complain much, I know there are people who work more than 12 hours everyday like Jackie for instance, my friend’s bf in HK who’s an accountant works till 4 am and returns back to work, 9 am juggling with everything else whilst being in a long distance relationship with my friend for the past 5 years.

  And speaking of relationships, I had been on a couple of dates here and there, with the 2 Russians in Singapore, the older guy, i went cycling with, no chemistry, he tried going in for for a kiss at the end of the night, and i gave him my cheeks twice, the younger one, i kinda enjoyed the attention, he tried to get me to go on another date with him but really, i wasn’t keen at all after that one date, it wasn’t him, just me… I just know, he’s not my kind of guy.. :/

  I met him at a party and turned him down on a couple of occasions for dinner via text knowing, he’d want something more. I really wasn’t into him and so i decided to not lead him anymore thru our  exchange of flirty texts that went on for weeks and replied to his last text inviting me for dinner saying, I’m not available, he texted back again asking if I was indefinitely unavailable or was it just for a while, I didn’t had an answer and did what i know best without hurting his feelings by avoiding his calls and texts and eventually, he stopped texting and calling and deleted me of FB.

  I met this other guy online a month ago for a short bit, we held hands, had champagne by the beach, it was all very nice, but he didn’t want a relationship at the moment ( also he just split up from his wife not too long ago)… Divorced men comes with baggages unfortunately..

  I don’t know why, i end up meeting one scoundrel, one after another…  I was thinking of Graeme (A) whom I wrote about of a possible relationship with him then, and tried meeting other people around just not to “put all my eggs in one basket” but It’s hard, I’m not sure how some do it, I can’t… I suck in this whole dating thing… :/

  I liked G at one point, I’ll not lie but, I’ve been thinking, if he’d be the kind of guy who could handle being in a relationship with me, I find him at times whiny and whingy with lots of issues to deal with and his arrogance sure is off putting and not just that, he’s disrespectful towards people and that is seriously a deal breaker for me.  My sister has a good judgment of character and she’s not impressed by him either and when he just keeps dissing people, I honestly feel like slapping him. Somebody needs to school that fool seriously!!!

  I like the idea of being in a relationship with my best friend, with someone who knows my heart and gets me and loves me, whom I can trust and be completely comfortable around with and hold a decent conversation with, without any insecurity  and someone with wits and a good heart, i could respect and adore … I’m sure, i’m just like any single lady, looking for real, ridiculous, inconvenient, all consuming, can’t live without each other kind of love.

  I’m beginning to think that, that kind of love does not exist, maybe it does for some, and for the last 4 years, I’m just desperately tired looking for love in all the wrong places. I like to believe in the best in people and sometimes, that’s how it is. It’s not that the person is bad,  just means the story ended for a beginning of another story like how Breaking bad unfolded as a fantastic story like a book you couldn’t put down, it wasn’t a bad story just not what you expected the ending to be like.

  I should concentrate on things like, sending out my resumes, and taking up pole classes in the evening to  keep fit and feel sexy at the same time, and earning all the money to do some travelling. Taiwan, Cambodia, Vietnam and NZ are some of the places I’d really like to go see… and meet @laytexduckie in NY for some delicious thinly crusted pizza, he has been raving about it , being the best pizza!  <3

  Ahhhh bucketlist…! What are your lists on your bucket list?

   

   

   

   

   

   

   

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