I've blocked memories that used to hurt me, must say, i've become so good at it, that i don't recall much of my past.
I like to think i'm pretty much a forgiving person but there are various degree of forgiveness. Forgiving is one thing and forgetting is another.
I've forgiven the ex who hurt me, the thing bout relationships, it takes two hands to clap, kinda similar to wearing a wrong size of shoe, it would just not be comfortable no matter how hard you try and try to fit in...
Tho, i've forgiven the person, i can't/ won't forgive the act done, where he hit, kicked me and spat on me when i finally muster up courage to break it off... It was just that one time, a nightmare, but enough for me to stay away from any potential relationships.. Its not some thing, one could brag bout or tell anyone bout it when it happened, however i did told a few people weeks later that he hit me but none would believe me cos he's a manipulative double face douche..
Jesus said not to throw your pearls to pigs- be careful that you do not give something precious to someone who at best cannot recognise its beauty or at worst will trample on it.. andi find that theres alot of truth and wisdom in it.
I took my time to heal the only way i know, but its a scar that only god can heal, im just glad it doesn't sting as much as it used to.
It's exhausting to be bitter bout things that has happened, there's so much beauty around us, why let all that pain come in to steal all that beauty away.